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Category: Abundance, Manifesting, Fulfillment, Self-Discovery

  • Recommitting To Myself

    Much of society today honors commitments within relationships whether it’s with family members, friendships, business partners, day to day jobs and careers or romantic relationships. However, how often do we honor commitments within ourselves? Rarely, in my opinion. How are we able to be so strongly committed to other people and not to ourselves? How are we able to invest so much of our time, energy and money into other people and not to ourselves? How are we able to be so faithful, dedicated, nurturing and loving to another person or to“things” and not be that way with ourselves? We honor and respect commitments with other people or institutions but fail to respect and honor commitments to ourselves. Maybe this is one of the reasons why most of our relationships, personal goals and endeavor’s never succeed or ends up being unbalanced because if we can’t fully  commit to ourself, how the hell can we commit to another person or “thing”.

    What does the context of Commitment mean here? For me, it’s the foundational ground work that must be carefully and firmly laid so that life can be fully experienced with purpose and passion. This foundation includes fidelity to oneself, sovereignty within, detached determination, patience, acceptance and allowance, wholeness within, unapologetic authenticity and connection/oneness with God. Committing to myself means even when faced with the most adverse circumstances where there’s not a solution in sight at the moment and I’m faltering in every step; I remain patient and committed to myself by embracing the power within and accepting the situation for what it is. I know there are many things out of my control so the best visible choice in the moment is to learn as much as I can about what I’m experiencing and implement those lessons in full circle moments. It’s easy to lose ourselves in desirable or undesirable situations if we are not mindful, aware and grounded in our foundation. It’s easy to commit to other people or “things” when our foundation is built on self-deceit, abandonment issues, co-dependency, fear and all other things external. This faulty foundation is what leads to self-betrayal which leads to us being incapable of committing to ourselves.

    How does this type of self-betrayal end? I believe that the moment we begin to truly Love, Honor and Trust ourselves is how the self-betrayal ends and where the recommitment to ourself begins. When we know we are the very essence of Love and was created to become the co-creators of our own lives here on this earth; we can begin to trust ourselves more, become more confident in who we are and what we are here to do, we make a vow of fidelity to ourself and allow nothing or no-one to destroy that relationship we have with ourself. We are in Love and loyal to our passions and purpose. We embrace our passion and our purpose, so we no longer put anything or anyone before them. We don’t wear social masks to hide who we really are and what we are here to share with the world. We are our true unapologetic and unfiltered selfs not giving one f**k about what anyone thinks or feel about who we really are. We are finally Free.

    Our values and desires become top priority when we recommit to ourselves. Everything we do and even say comes from a place of pure Love. We think and behave differently, therefore our old life and everything that came with it that wasn’t a constituent of Love and Truth withers and dies. That means faulty relationships, that job you thought you were going to retire at, the plague of fear and doubt, guilt and shame; those habits and patterns you thought were going to stick with you forever are now DONE. It may be challenging when we begin to recommit to ourselves but when we remain steadfast and anchored in our foundation, the journey becomes easier. Life just flows effortlessly and we experience life presently with more joy and happiness from our Spirit rather than our ego. We know our worth and what we deserve so we no longer sell ourselves short by committing to everything and everyone before making ourselves and our needs a top priority first. And all of this is done selflessly selfishly. Yes, you read it correct. Selflessly, selfishly. Only the ones truly committed to themselves in the most Loving way understand what I mean here. Life’s lighter, brighter and filled with so much more joy and happiness you can’t receive externally. We are simply Free. Being in a healthy Committed relationship is one of the most beautiful things to experience, so from this moment forward, let this commitment begin with ourself  first. 

    From this moment forward, I Trayona, vow to love, honor and support myself in everything I do and in having what I really want. I am going to commit to myself in every way I can. This is what I really want for myself and I absolutely deserve it. 

    Now you.

  • We are Abundant Beings!

    I want to spend a moment talking about the word just about 90% of western society is in search of and that’s abundance. If you are currently how I use to be then anytime you see the word “Abundance” or “Abundant” something inside you instantly spark feelings of excitement you can’t contain or you try to be modest about it but deep down inside you know you’re hooked and is very likely to buy, read or listen to anything regarding that word. I also know that If you were to ask that 90% what does abundance mean to them, I can almost guarantee that most would link abundance to money, happiness or anything else that’s material. Now, I’m not saying that abundance can’t be anything material because it can and it actually is However, it’s much much deeper than having an abundance of anything external.

    First, before you read any further, what’s your textbook definition of abundance? and what does the word really mean to you? Are you like most people who associate abundance with just money and happiness or do you too feel that it is also deeper than the material aspect? My textbook definition of abundance is (an ample amount/quantity; affluence or wealth) and what it use to mean to me personally was having a lot of money and prestige. Yes, I know it’s a pretty shallow way of thinking, but thats all I really thought of whenever I heard the word and because I was operating in such a lack, limiting and scarce mindset anytime I saw the word abundance I was like a wolf or maybe more of a hyena on the hunt for “attracting” abundance. I had it completely wrong. Just recently, like literally last week as I’m listening to my healing/transformation playlist on the activation app, (wonderful app by the way) I was listening to the abundant activation and found myself not really being able to connect with the feeling of abundance because I was only thinking from an external point of view like the businesses I want to create, the money I want to make and even thinking of the future woman I desire to be so nothing was clicking internally for me. I felt like I didn’t know what it means to feel abundant because most of my life never felt abundant. Then came the discouraging feelings of hopelessness until something inside me said Muffin, you’re doing it all wrong. Stop associating abundance with only money, wealth and success especially from a future perspective and start associating it with feelings of gratitude for what I have right now and really FEELING abundant without attaching my business ideas, dollar amounts and even the Sovereign woman I’ll someday become to it; all of which is extremely important to me but when I contemplated that suggestion everything just kind of clicked for me making much more sense and helped me to really embrace and embody the FEELINGS of abundance.

    I know that Feelings are an integral part in manifesting and as we know, you can lie to yourself about how you feel but you can’t lie to the Universe. I mean, I don’t even think we can truly lie to ourselves because deep down inside, we FEEL therefore we KNOW what’s really up. The whole point I’m trying to make is that to receive an abundance of anything, start focusing on the feelings of Joy and Delight, even if that means recalling an experience that made you feel so contentedly fulfilled inside such as spending time with people you really love and care about and enjoy their company, or that time you had a couple extra hundred in your bank account and you were super ecstatic about, or that time you had mind blowing sex (with the right person), or when you have a self-care day or spending time with your children. Whatever that beautiful experience is, you hold it in your mind and in your heart for a few moments then drop the experience and focus completely on that feeling. You hold that Feeling in your heart and in your mind simultaneously thinking this is what I want more of. These feelings of intense Joy and Delight. Those genuine Feelings will be amplified. Therefore by Universal Law, the things you truly desire Will be brought into fruition and you Will have abundance because you’ll realize that you are essentially Abundant already.

    Abundance in this sense is just a Feeling that you can tap into whenever you feel like and the more you tap into those feelings of Joy and Delight the more you’ll attract joyful and delightful experiences and “things” that you can have an “abundance” of, It’s all up to you. Now, this is just my unorthodox way of thinking about things you don’t have to take my word on this but I still hope you do because I truly believe that once you do and you make it a habit, watch how Abundant your life become but more importantly, watch how you discover that abundance was already your inherent nature.