Recommitting To Myself

Much of society today honors commitments within relationships whether it’s with family members, friendships, business partners, day to day jobs and careers or romantic relationships. However, how often do we honor commitments within ourselves? Rarely, in my opinion. How are we able to be so strongly committed to other people and not to ourselves? How are we able to invest so much of our time, energy and money into other people and not to ourselves? How are we able to be so faithful, dedicated, nurturing and loving to another person or to“things” and not be that way with ourselves? We honor and respect commitments with other people or institutions but fail to respect and honor commitments to ourselves. Maybe this is one of the reasons why most of our relationships, personal goals and endeavor’s never succeed or ends up being unbalanced because if we can’t fully  commit to ourself, how the hell can we commit to another person or “thing”.

What does the context of Commitment mean here? For me, it’s the foundational ground work that must be carefully and firmly laid so that life can be fully experienced with purpose and passion. This foundation includes fidelity to oneself, sovereignty within, detached determination, patience, acceptance and allowance, wholeness within, unapologetic authenticity and connection/oneness with God. Committing to myself means even when faced with the most adverse circumstances where there’s not a solution in sight at the moment and I’m faltering in every step; I remain patient and committed to myself by embracing the power within and accepting the situation for what it is. I know there are many things out of my control so the best visible choice in the moment is to learn as much as I can about what I’m experiencing and implement those lessons in full circle moments. It’s easy to lose ourselves in desirable or undesirable situations if we are not mindful, aware and grounded in our foundation. It’s easy to commit to other people or “things” when our foundation is built on self-deceit, abandonment issues, co-dependency, fear and all other things external. This faulty foundation is what leads to self-betrayal which leads to us being incapable of committing to ourselves.

How does this type of self-betrayal end? I believe that the moment we begin to truly Love, Honor and Trust ourselves is how the self-betrayal ends and where the recommitment to ourself begins. When we know we are the very essence of Love and was created to become the co-creators of our own lives here on this earth; we can begin to trust ourselves more, become more confident in who we are and what we are here to do, we make a vow of fidelity to ourself and allow nothing or no-one to destroy that relationship we have with ourself. We are in Love and loyal to our passions and purpose. We embrace our passion and our purpose, so we no longer put anything or anyone before them. We don’t wear social masks to hide who we really are and what we are here to share with the world. We are our true unapologetic and unfiltered selfs not giving one f**k about what anyone thinks or feel about who we really are. We are finally Free.

Our values and desires become top priority when we recommit to ourselves. Everything we do and even say comes from a place of pure Love. We think and behave differently, therefore our old life and everything that came with it that wasn’t a constituent of Love and Truth withers and dies. That means faulty relationships, that job you thought you were going to retire at, the plague of fear and doubt, guilt and shame; those habits and patterns you thought were going to stick with you forever are now DONE. It may be challenging when we begin to recommit to ourselves but when we remain steadfast and anchored in our foundation, the journey becomes easier. Life just flows effortlessly and we experience life presently with more joy and happiness from our Spirit rather than our ego. We know our worth and what we deserve so we no longer sell ourselves short by committing to everything and everyone before making ourselves and our needs a top priority first. And all of this is done selflessly selfishly. Yes, you read it correct. Selflessly, selfishly. Only the ones truly committed to themselves in the most Loving way understand what I mean here. Life’s lighter, brighter and filled with so much more joy and happiness you can’t receive externally. We are simply Free. Being in a healthy Committed relationship is one of the most beautiful things to experience, so from this moment forward, let this commitment begin with ourself  first. 

From this moment forward, I Trayona, vow to love, honor and support myself in everything I do and in having what I really want. I am going to commit to myself in every way I can. This is what I really want for myself and I absolutely deserve it. 

Now you.